I am sitting here thinking how I need to keep fighting through the feeling of being overwhelmed. As I look up from my laptop, I see my dad’s boxing gloves and I take that as a sign to keep fighting.
Then I clearly remember my friend Carol’s face. God sent her to tell me, “You’re striving, Becki, and you don’t need to do that.” And so, I’ve been learning how to take my hands off people and situations and let God have control. I call it being a 'control freak in remission'.
My gaze returns to the boxing gloves. It occurs to me that the same advice doesn’t always apply to everyone. Some of us need to get up off our backsides and put up a fight. Proverbs 20:4 “A sluggard does not plow in season; so at harvest time he looks but finds nothing.” But others of us could use a bit of rest. Those of us who deal with control issues work so hard at getting it all done that we wear ourselves out and tire everyone around us in the process.
Maybe God just wants me to look at the boxing gloves with new, rested eyes. Not that my body will always feel rested. But when I say to God, “Daddy (Abba) … please take charge of this matter. I choose to give it back to you”… When I let God be in charge, there is a restfulness in my spirit and mind that translates into ease in my body. “And the peace of God, which surpasses every understanding, shall guard your hearts and your thoughts by Christ Jesus. “Philippians 4:7 Darby Translation
"Lord, help me to look at those boxing gloves and be reminded that you are fighting for me. And when you call me to the fight, help me to remember to fight the battle You called me to – not one of my own choosing. Thank You, Father God, for leading the fight and being my Protector. Thank You Father, that I am not in this battle alone. Thank you for fighting WITH Me dear Loving, Precious, Warrior Daddy."
I almost missed it. I hung those boxing gloves next to a mirror. Lord, when I look at the gloves, let me look into the mirror and see my face. Because that is what You do. Your eyes are focused on Your daughter as You lead me through this strange and foreign land on our way Home.
2 Sam 22:30-31: With your help I can advance against a troop; with my God I can scale a wall. As for God, his way is perfect; the word of the LORD is flawless. He is a shield for all who take refuge in him.